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with Joe Budden
[Hook]
Oh, the pain wonât stop (the pain donât stop)
Almost like itâs got a hold on me (on me)
Shackles and cuffs, I can be no more than a slave
And still the pain wonât stop
Like my demons got control of me
Wonât take me alive
I guess someoneâs gonna see the grave
[Bridge]
And it won't be me, and it canât be me
And it wonât be me, I wonât let it be me
And it wonât be me, and it canât be me
And it wonât be me, I wonât let it be me
[Verse 1: Joe Budden]
Iâm staring at the pain in the mirror, or is it a facsimile?
Question hurts more than the fact that it resembles me
Thought em all in the past, I mean essentially
So when we side by side I just act like itâs all a memory
And then I got a whole market of fans
With no clue what I speak of, but some of yall understand
If you knew about my woes you wouldnât target the man
And if you did itâd be about more than a marketing plan
I got a heart thatâs ice cold, Iâve been trying to melt, it's talent
Honest to yall, all while lying to myself
Seem like I do the most damage, all when trying to help
And no one asked for it, I decided myself
You think the road a nigga traveled
Has been long enough for yall to see the winner in him?
Donât know if Iâm fighting my demons or going to dinner with em
I sit across from that table just looking brave and tough
But itâs only right they get the check, figured that I paid enough
[Hook]
[Verse 2: Joe Budden]
Fans say they waitin on a break up, donât want me at the altar
But how would their lives alter, I figure how could they fault ya?
Followed me in this business, you witnessed me go through torture
With my exâs so what if? Wish I wouldnât want anymore
Begs the question what do niggas really want in me?
Couldnât be as simple as misery loving company
Canât be as cliché as being a gift and a curse
But how could you ever claim to love someone then wish em the worst?
It appears my happiness has some people resenting me
Should I appreciate love that come with contingencies?
Yall get mad whenever someone else mentions me
Ironic, got a ex thatâs showing similar tendencies
Spite stems from hate, I try to never be near it
Do you only want the best for Joe when we could share it?
That can become obsessive like you wouldnât believe
Donât take my word, just look at what happened to Steve
It got Raqi looking rocky, had em by me and I watched em both deteriorate
Was ugly if you trust me then you wouldnât want to share their fate
And so it seems the people I'd jump in the casket for
Their mindâs playing tricks, I wish they knew they mattered more
Would they ask for more or would that will subside?
Poured my heart out all these years, Iâm shocked I'm still alive
Tell him like I told Stack, it gets no realer
You love something too much, guarantee it'll kill ya, for real
[Hook]
[Verse 3: Joe Budden]
I crashed a million times, still Iâm without a dent
They come to me to air it out but Iâm without a vent
I have nightmares about the shit I thought I said
Cried enough that Posturepedic is a waterbed
Look at you like a nobody, it ainât much I could ask of you
And I'd give you a hand but what the fuck would you attach it to?
Finish one chore, God will throw you some more shit
Itâs not enough Iâm fighting mine still I battle your shit
[Hook]
[Bridge]
- Album:
- Painkillerz 3 (Mixtape)