You know
As soon as I tell people I have Autism
They're like,
whoa really?
I Had no idea man!
I know you don't
It's not an easy thing
Be in My own world all the time
To have to live inside my own box
Not being able to really communicate with other people
This is...
The best way I can try to describe it
Do the only thing I'm good at, right?
Me and Dan
Let's do it
I never asked for the symptoms of Asperger's syndrome
It attacks where it hits home
And acts worse when Vits groan
I give vocal indication
That I hate social situations
I never found someone like me
Who's close to inspiration
In cold Inoperation(?)
I can't hold a conversation
Or untold observations
That stole my concentration
I'm at the feeble border
Between creepy and awkward
And in deeper artform
Whenever people offered
Combined with tags
I can't keep eye contact
And I combat life with wannabe edgy and violent tracks
Simple mimicry to mask us
Show little empathy
Im presently indifferent to everything from love to methamphetamines
Compassion died while murder makes me laugh and smile
Passers-bye will make me keep my head down for massive miles
Everything needs to be put back in order and a placement
I can barely stand alone since I totally lack coordination
I'm living with Autism
And all the world's a stage for which I never auditioned
I'm Living with Autism
My brain plays a syncopated change of pace to your rhythm
I'm living with Autism
And these bars form the cells of my mental prison
Til I saw I didn't need to be forgiven
For being me
And living with Autism
This is why I rap abusive and I keep acting stupid
'Cause it's how I keep away
And in the back, reclusive
Say I condone murder
To stop all my co-workers
From hanging out
And trying to make our relationships go further
I wanna end all of these morbid thought proportions
And make an other artist paint a portrait of the Autist
People plan and specialize
And try to understand and recognise
But then they find they're unprepaired and come and question
why?
I can't give a voice to the voiceless
Or make a life story pointless
Just say that I'm disappointed
And always devoid of enjoyment
No one witnesses my intricate and mental differences
No bridges between myself and the Olympians are limitless
I'm marked as heartless
But I'm the victim
Im caustic as a pale artist
Who has been given harshest criticism
there's no need to show sympathy or come pity me
Just don't have it be a mystery the day that I'm gone,
Instantly
I'm living with Autism
And all the world's a stage for which I never auditioned
I'm Living with Autism
My brain plays a syncopated change of pace to your rhythm
I'm living with Autism
And these bars form the cells of my mental prison
Til I saw I didn't need to be forgiven
For being me
And living with Autism
I've said it before
And I'm ready to tell it again
In my lowest moments, I'm my own best friend
I wanna connect with the people around me,
The people that doubt me
But being in a loud scene
With a crowd screaming around me
Is totally overwhelming
To the point that I feel I'm drowning
The sea and the fear surround me
The cheers are bringing me down deep
But now the crowning glory
Is how the crowd applaud me
Applause resounding all around
The sound is out of the ordinary
Kind of like my personality
Til I learned it wasn't a tragedy
These mannarisms and danielisms
Are things that make me actually me!
An atom within the matter
That's spanning the seas, and planets, and galaxies
and that isn't an alagory
We're all composed of energy
And it means the planet's a can of beans
With infinite different varieties
So why are me and V seen as a difficult bit of society?
Nah Fuck That
We're the facets in the diamond
While you're on the mountain shouting you can't see the fact we're climbing
I'm living with Autism
And all the world's a stage for which I never auditioned
I'm Living with Autism
My brain plays a syncopated change of pace to your rhythm
I'm living with Autism
And these bars form the cells of my mental prison
'Til I saw I didn't need to be forgiven
For being me
And living with Autism
Autism isn't just about
Complete disability
Sometimes it's about
Being unable to connect.
Nathan☺Holder

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