I wonder if you can see
I wonder if you can tell
I wonder if you see through
The mask I wear so well for you
I'll never let you know what's going on inside me
My shame, locks me down
All the things I wanted to tell you
All the things I never will
Every time you reached out to me
All I did was push you away
I can't unchain the beast
That screams inside me
I hate it, it's what I am
It makes me sick to be so mean
From where I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom, I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
You smile at me, I smile back
You ask me how I am
I tell you that I'm fine
I don't why I'm so torn up inside my mind
The darkness, it swallows me whole
It makes me sick to be so mean
From what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom, I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
It's shame, shame
It's shame
It makes that old lie
It makes that old lie
It makes me look at myself
And say
Man, you're doing just fineYou doing great
I'm not living in a lie
I'm not living in a lie or am I?
It makes me sick to be so mean
From what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom, I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
Don't go too deep
Don't ask me why
Don't try to know me
Don't make me lie
I wish I didn't know the things I do so well
I try to change
But it's what I am
It makes me sick to be so mean
From what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom, I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
It's shame, shame
It's shame, shame
I'm not living in a lie, am I?
I'm not living in a lie, am I?