(CHAPTER ONE: Anger)
(Intro)
Locked up in these chains, I can't do this; I want myself to be set free,
And I cannot choose the best, ‘cause the worst has already chosen me.
It's because my mind's not sharp, it's like a butter knife, I can't seem to find the key.
I have swum, but I think it has already sunk deep into the sea.
But I don't know, it couldn't have sunk deeper than anger has sunk into my blood?
My lies didn't hit her the way they hit me in such a running flood.
Rage live in the shadows, and shadows hides beneath my skin.
Real eyes realize real lies, and that this skin is hard to live in.
My tears fill the clouds, I think it will rain, I am not proud.
Take the time to listen; I want to read my chapter out loud.
Hope is overused and darkness covers me in a cloak.
Words unsaid left scars in my head, now I'm choking in this smoke.
Had enough, my heart isn't something you can borrow.
The water of lies, pain, heartbreak, anger and sorrow,
It fills my bucket of endurance; it overflows, my way is getting narrow.
My fate's been set unknown in every tomorrow.
(My crying couldn't become any louder,
My head says my scream couldn't have been any prouder.)
I criticize her actions, feeling like a sadist, wanna' see her in lots of pain,
Wanna' mess with her mind; open her skull, meaning to penetrate her brain!
‘Cause what I feel is impossible to neither understand nor to even explain.
Your terrible mind uses pretty eyes as disguise. My spit in your face will forever remain.
The creation of God and all that is good has gone out of order,
And I don't wanna' waste my time, but I let her play with me, ‘cause I try not to bore her.
Therefore, I'll make some fun out of it and put my knife in your corner,
And while I gut you, I'll film it and save it on a recorder.
Wanna' rip up her chest and finally find her heart.
She's begging to leave; but I can't reply ‘cause I'm laughing too hard.
But wait, why do I act as if I am the one to place the blame?
I found that betrayal doesn't come from one's enemies. The man in the mirror is the one filled with the most shame.
You finally killed the person who used to be me, but I know that some of it is my bad,
So why are my words filled with insanity, and why am I mad over the angel who I never had?
Can't just be a friend, it is too weak. Now I am tired, but not because I need to sleep.
Dreams were supposed to become true, but I forgot nightmares was dreams too. Feel I wanna' weep.
Dark lights me up while I try to bury you, I hope the tracks will be unseen.
But, hey! I'm smiling, I'm goddamn alright! I just found that silence is the most powerful scream!
I finally found your love,
It was inside my head.
The whispering from above,
Drags me closer to the dead.
And it's all because the way you made me devastated.
I wanted you decapitated.
The only thing I knew about was you and I, and we were separated.
Aggravated.
Drown you from the broken ship, but that's exaggerated.
No, it's not, you little bitch, ‘cause you deserve it, piece of shit.
I'm spitting a brick at your flattety tit,
The relationship had to sink.
Now I have to admit
that lately I've been thinking that I'm going insane.
And it may look like I'm stuck in the sane,
But this is how I look when I pretend I don't feel any pain!
(CHAPTER TWO: Sorrow)
Rain (rain) comes in mornings, not always at nights. (nights)
And all that's left is mourning; I'll never be able to find the lights. (lights)
I am gone now.
This corpse is all blue.
The art of lying
Will make me speak true.
The light turned to dark.
Parts of my soul are missing.
Why weren't I good enough, (my love)?
I need to gather up thousands of my confessions,
I will no longer act as if you're one of my possessions.
You were everything I ever wanted, but never in this way.
I wouldn't be with me neither, so it's okay if you won't stay.
Don't want this neither, cannot control it. It is so unnecessarily dramatic.
But after all this running and disappearing, I have become so asthmatic.
While I was telling you, I saw you crying.
I may have looked cold, but on the inside I was dying.
The bucket has fallen; presence of anger is no longer here.
Sorrow stands before it, but it will soon disappear.
I was reaching for a hand that was never there.
A fragment about extinction of my tear. (Tear, tear)
(Guitar solo - Sorrow)
(CHAPTER THREE: Happiness)
(Guitar solo - Happiness)
Since I've fallen so many times,
I can finally reply,
That jumping from the wrong –
The good will make me fly.
You made me crazy,
And you may have taken lots from my soul,
But you cannot ever take my pride.
Something tells me that I might find,
That and an eye for an eye will make us both blind.
Gained some peace in my mind,
And all the things that we've done,
I have finally left behind.
The bucket's hopefully empty,
I've learnt ‘cause you've been heartless.
I found that all the stars,
Can't shine without a little darkness.
I pity you when you tried to bury me, because you probably didn't know that all along I was a seed.
Leaving me in the soil made me realize that my favourite flavour would eventually concede.
I wanted power of love, not love of power. Don't think I ever wanted to hurt you, ‘cause that would probably destroy me.
If there's rain and some sunlight, there'll be a rainbow. Everything seemed grey, but the colours are now easy to see.
I chose what made me happy instead of what was right, ‘cause happy has always been right.
Losing the feelings of every yesterday, that hid behind my smile. Above every mighty storm, the sun will always shine bright.
Something hits me, and it makes every shadow stand behind me, it's light.
My silhouette hopefully stands where it should.
Birds sing, there is all blue in my sight,
Everything inside and out seems to be good.
So, the bucket was just filled with anger and pain, right?
No happiness and good in there, right? Knock on wood?
(CHAPTER FOUR: Insanity)
Emptied the bucket, and it's no longer a mystery,
That my good emotions flowed out as well, and that time has come to misery.
Time has come to misery.
Can you feel it?
Oh, God...
Save me from myself!
(Or what I've become)
But can I kill someone who has already died?
Through sleepless nights,
Myself and I discovered that stars do not last forever
(Forever).
Silence speaks when words can't.
(Empty) x14
Time has come to misery.