Acrasia chapter v return to ithaca

My heart is a harbour for sorrow
I'm better off misled
The waves of nostalgia
They fill up the empty voids that lay about my head
I could shrug it off
But voices still remain
The faces I love, I can hear them
They're calling out my name
Time is a deceitful bitch that slipped her way around my gaze
My head is worn out and my heart yearns for its home
And though these feet are bruised
I'm the one that used you for my personal gain
And now my world is faded
There's no place for me to call my own
Am I just a stranger?
Pride has become my foe
Will I fall?
All my patience has worn thin
I'm in over my head
Should I just commit this sin?
I just wanted it all
But there's no one to break my fall
And I fall a lot
As she slithers past I ask myself Is this where I should be?
Where do I belong? Am I just chasing this dream blindly?
I long to run away
Far from my mistakes
Far from all my vanity
To a place I know
A place where all my flaws won't be held against me
I hear my name in riddles
They say Its time to come home"
"Youve done more than you know
And yet still I choke on tears of dreams unknown