It was all part of the plan
Just think a year from now you wonât remember my name
We hydroplaned
And I watched us crash and burn before we hit the wall
Stepping stones donât exist when Iâve fallen off a cliff
Selfishness, ignorance, fucking bliss
It wasnât enough, Iâm never enough
You say that you cared, Iâm calling your bluff
Iâll never be fucking good enough
I tried to erase you but the words smeared on the paper
I need aâ¦mind eraser
One so vile and abrasive that I wonât remember all the pain you put me through
This was all part of your plan
Itâs been a year and I canât remember your face
My minds gone blank but nothing feels the same
Memories replaced with the let-down of an empty promise
I should have called this from a mile away
But I was blinded by what was and what could have been us
And so Iâll stay awake at night haunted by the thought of years lost
And time spent caring for someoneâ¦
Who didnât give a fuck whether I was still breathing at the end of the day
I still canât believe how easily you dropped everything and pushed me away
So let me set this straight
I am everything you hate
Iâm the grime that lines your sink
Iâm the fucking demon seed
All I wanted was for you to fucking care for once in your selfish life
The time we wasted
The feeling of being alone, out in the cold
A misguided soul, destined to spend his life on his own
I hope youâre happy
Iâm standing here with a sense of regret for the things I have said