Against Myself diary of tears

I don't understand your rituals
They made my brain switch off
And my soul trusted you
I was a fool but I woke up
I turned into a ghost in the beautiful reality
You didn't see my fate wilted
You have dropped the box
That contained my heart
Everything is already broken
If I hadn't believed you when you said: I love you
I promise that I'll rip up your smile
I aim to pull down our story
I'm tired of my unreal happiness
So listen to me
You have dropped the box
That contained my heart
Everything is already broken
If I hadn't believed you when you said: I love you
It's burning ice and frozen fire
What I feel when I'm bleeding
I want to burn your memory
That crawls through the shadows
I writhe in pain
Lay alone thank you
I wasn't aware of your false words
I'll weave your tears
You're afraid, repent and you can't do anything
My body died and destroyed, my soul going to get you
Now you call me, have you been alone?
You thought you were stronger than me
But you know it is not so
You want to get out of here
You are a lost soul
Undirected
You will climb to the heights
Only to fall
I am filled with pain
All this time
Don't try
Keep out, out
Everything is already broken
If I hadn't believed you when you said: I love you