Alex Amsterdam out of the blue

It’s time to go, it’s time to sleep
My own surrender needs no reason
Want to escape, no need to weep
A major change in the same old seasons
I’m wondering ‘bout my behaviour
I’m still standing proud, don’t need no saviour
I feel so lost and lonely
I’m not the one and only
Just want to remain…the same
Won’t live like common people
I’m just a shadow of my own former self
And I’m sure I won’t be able
To pull my head out of the sand
How could this last forever
I hate myself but still love you
But sometimes love remains of out the blue
I’m standing here, about to cry
But all I hear is my own laughter
Sounds like a well-known weary sigh
The question what’s before and after
Won’t live like common people
I’m just a shadow of my own former self
And I’m sure I won’t be able
To pull my head out of the sand
How could this last forever
I hate myself but still love you
But sometimes love remains of out the blue