Anacrusis vital

The gentle embrace of death
Touches my weary soul
I'm closer to the end now
Enough despair, I'm whole
Destined to make the right choice
My existence, a constant struggle
Soon I will at last be free
Of my chemical burden
My consciousness is raised
Without society's poison
Destined to make the right choice
I exist but I have to feel vital
Helpless, abandoned, relentless attack
Realize my dreams, I can't turn back
Always doubting yet indecisive
Meandering convictions become so pensive
Part of me wants to live
I grope for a reason
Yet I'll be granted solace
Seeming serene [unverified] open
Destined to make the right choice
I exist but I have to feel vital