Angels & Agony inside sanity

Today I stared through the window
My eyes met their reflection
Thoughts like falling leaves
Thoughts like pouring rain
Of all my thoughts I had imagined
Of all the ones I was so sure
My ideas so bright and pure
I left out the ones that were true
Of all my feelings I could access
Of all my emotions I could reach
All my words of wisdom
The ones I was able to preach
I need to know if all these thoughts and feelings
Reflect my true and deepest wishes
I'm looking for answer
Among these troubled thoughts
I need to clear my mind
From fear disguised as truth
Of all my thoughtsI had imagined
Of all the ones I was so sure
My ideas so bright and pure
I left out the ones that were true
Of all my feelings I could access
Of all my emotions I could reach
All my words of wisdom
The ones I was able to preach