Avenie not a second of rest

A shrouded sorrow, so deep I have nothing left to say
You see me different, depraved, cold and estranged
...And I've waited here for hours
Relentessly in pain
...And I waited here for ages
For something that never came
I remind myself how much I am less than you
This is how it should, and always should have been
If I was any weaker, I don't think I would be here no more
Every passing second takes me another step further from where I always wanted to be