I'm drowning in filthy water.
I'm starting to go insane!
Should I stop believing?
And just accept my pain?
I've got this power in me!
The will to make it stop!
I'm caught in a pattern of self-destruction
And Iâm trying to get back on top.
You canât burn up if you were never on fire!
You can´t find the truth surrounded by lairs!
Hate me much and I will hate me more!
I hate myself like never before!
Addicted to chaos, addicted to filth.
I'm used to the lies, the anger the guilt.
Life gave me more than I have gave life.
Now all I have is my will to survive!
I'm tired, Iâm pissed off.
I'm fucked up, Iâve lost love.
I'm angry and violent, I crossed the line!
But I have learned that life is a journey.
Donât take mine!
I'm done with this life, Iâm done being with her.
Iâm sick of this strife, being broke bruised and bitter.
Relapse is reality so swallow the hurt.
Hang on to your misery and deal with the dirt!
Fuck being faithful, stop wasting my time.
My dreams became nightmares with bloodshed and crime.
You donât have to tell me
I'm headed for hell.
But you wonât see me crying.
I will face it like a man.
I'm tired, Iâm pissed off.
I'm fucked up, Iâve lost love!
I'm angry and violent, I crossed the line!
But I have learned that life is a journey.
Donât take mine!
MY PAIN IS MY SALVATION!
MY WILL IS MY DEDICATION!
I CAN NOT DOUBT THE EXISTENCE OF HELL
BECAUSE - I'M - LIVING IN IT!