Behind Deadlines far from sober

I just broke up with you
And now I'm sure I'll be the bad guy too
Although as we both know that isn't true
I'm shutting down again
And you'll be sad because we can't be friends
Of course, I feel much worse, you understand
I functioned well before I met you
And I don't know why I let you
Make me feel like such a heel, empty and bland
And I was wrong to think we're better as a pair
I feel much better every day that you're not here
All the times I felt so wrong
Struggling just to get along
Everything we've ever done
That's all over
Can't believe it fell apart
Never should have had a start
Drinking on an empty heart
Far from sober now
I've had enough of this
And I'm done being such a sycophant
Cause there's no winners here, but I don't lose
I feel embarrassed of myself
Because I couldn't be more selfish
I'm allergic now to shellfish, bugs, and you
And I'm thinking about right now, not yesterday
I wish that you were half a million miles away
All the times I felt so wrong
Struggling just to get along
Everything we've ever done
That's all over
Can't believe it fell apart
Never should have had a start
Drinking on an empty heart
Far from sober now