Behind the Fallen revenant

These cages in my mind
They make nightmares out of me
I'm hanging on by a thread
Of this rope around my neck
This [?] is my worst reality
It reads on my tombstone
Here lies [?]
[?] self control
As I'm gasping for air
Something else has got to give
I can't trust the world I'm in
Slaved to all the lies I've made
All good dreams have got to end
On my knees to make amends
Blame myself for all the pain
It's all the same
I'm pulling out the stitches one by one
To resurrect my fate
Oh mother, what have I done?
I'm feeling [?] my chest
The virus spreads like a bullet to bury the rest
We'll paint the walls with the sharpest shade of red
There is no control
This is end