Bellows thick skin

Staring out your car window I feel my size
Hudson Palms, The Catskill Gulf Stream
The world's alive!
I knew your fullness from the start, I felt your size
And I saw an ending in your face, your arms, your bed at night
And what's better than looking for it, something you won't find?
I've grown so thick skinned lately, but I wanna cry
You couldn't see the way I let go
Surfaced from sorrow and sunk into something more gross
Cause I still fear the unknown
Don't wanna leave the earth even for a moment
Cause what's better than looking for it?
What's better than lost time?
I've grown so thick skinned lately, but I wanna cry
So will you hold me close, then open your arms?
I want to feel you missing, to feel your warmth
Cause what's better than looking for it, something you won't find?
I've grown so thick skinned lately
But I want to cry
But I want to cry
But I want to cry