Bergman midair reflections

As cold as the air
That bites my face
The words, the looks
And my last gin
Deported, away from the place
With a rosy cheek
From a longed-for palm
A ringing head
So I went up high
But then again, why?
How was I to know
That time would move this slow
Consequenses of gravity
In despair, I pray
Please God, save me
If I had a friend
Who could forgive and forget
Spared me from this goddamn regret
Never felt this way before in my life
The day I broke my wings
One second hate it all
The next miss everything
If I had a gun
A Magnum .45
I would have done it fast
I would have done it right
Helpless I am, changing my mind
But it's too fucking late
Wondering why I didn't even
Hesitate
In the reflections of the windows
Across the street
I see a man
Whose world revolves around him
That's when I realize
I've been falling down for years
Never sympathized
For the ones I put in tears
How can I explain
I'll be recalled as insane
If remembered at all
Then so be it, man
It's my own fault
If I had a friend
Who could forgive and forget
Spared me from this goddamn regret
Never felt this way before in my life
The day I broke my wings
One second hate it all
The next miss everything
If I had a gun
A Magnum .45
I would have done it fast
I would have done it right
Helpless I am, changing my mind
But it's too fucking late
Wondering why I didn't even
Hesitate
A sudden conversion
For a conversation
With a higher power
Beg for salvation
Oh Lord, reach out your hand
I swear I'll serve you all I can
If you save me
I know it's little, and so late
Delay my death
And to myself I ask
Is this my last breath
And I hit ground