Bidroha states of mind

Frustration, agony, vengeance and destruction
All chose to be my friends, left me in delusion
Tears, hatred, pain and irritation
Wrapped me around to bleed in suffocation
Success, power, my dreams and ambition
Are away from me, far from my imagination
Happiness, love, smile, satisfaction
Fear to be mine; like I'll lead 'em to destruction
I wish to break free
Free from the evil thoughts that hover around me
Wanna know how it feels to be at ecstasy
Need moments for myself where I love being me!