Blue J hard to know

The way that you looked on that day
I knew that I could not relate
To the shock that showed up on your face
The look of loss you wore with grace
Staring at cracks on the ground
Your call ended without a sound
No goodbye or see you later
Your breath was getting deeper
'Til you started hypervent-ilating
Just when you got off those pills, you were taking
And if your whole life turns to shit
I know it's hard to know
You drag your body around behind you
Everywhere you go
You don't wanna live and I know it's hard to know
To realize you can't just let it go
Told you I would be right back
I had to go get cigarettes
And you said Dont leave here
Check the back of the freezer"
Later on the balcony
I thought I heard a scream in the back alley
And came in to find you crying
He had no one beside him
Then you started hypervent-ilating
Just when you got off those pills you were taking
And if your whole life turns to shit
I know it's hard to know
You drag your body around behind you
Everywhere you go
You don't wanna live and I know it's hard to know
To realize you can't just let it go
And if your whole life turns to shit
I know it's hard to know
You drag your body around behind you
Everywhere you go
You don't wanna live and I know it's hard to know
To realize you can't just let it go
Oooh...
Oooh...