Boy & Bear stranger

Old man, was it worth it?
Was it all that it seemed?
Did you ever find the carcass of your dreams?
Oh, you must know I was young
the fear I had not yet outrun,
though I was never meant to hurt you
but I do, oh
I do, ohhh
It's got a hold of me, but it keeps coming away
And you were always looking at me from afar
I can't change
I'm a stranger to my nature
Would you love me anyway?
If my head don't talk right
Don't let me down, old man.
Through the swollen eyes of your Ritalin
It's like a stranger's standing over me
Some kind of faceless beast that watches as I sleep
Now there's a hard lump in my throat
And all the best times that you've ever known
Are all just fading off the back of my sanity
Oh please
I made you weep
It's got a hold of me but it keeps coming away
But you were always looking at me from afar,
I can't change (?)
I'm a stranger to my nature
Would you love me anyway?
If my head don't talk right
Don't let me down, old man
I wanted (?)
I left the seeds of a memory
And I wondered if I've come too far.