Braveheart christmas carol

When I see the Christmas lights
They remind me of stories of my life
I wonder why I became this stain
I must have walked on the borderline
How I wish I could hold you strongly once again, babe
Open gifts with the kids, kiss them and see their faces
But today I am behind this window looking inside on Christmas Eve
My heart is frozen, feeling torn
At least I get to see your smile in tears
It's cold outside, I hurt inside
I just wanna mend what's been lost in my life
it's been so long
Bridge/I'll never be in the picture with you guys
Dreams shattered within memories left behind… so long