Braveheart guilty

Sick in the middle of an ocean of nothingness
Sick of feeding this guilt
I'm broken
Here… sore… blind… blind in anguish
I feel this
I didn't say things that could have been said
I regret it
What could have I said?
Looking for redemption to heal
Throughout the night I felt I was dying
This will consume me 'till I find the light
You bled in silence, unresponsive,
Suffering only in your mind
Here in the night, guilty, fading…
Afraid of starting over again
I put it all together and . second chance
I gotta feeling it'll roll
Forgiveness
Forgive me …. Sometimes I simply don't see
Enlighten me
Save me…. I wanna escape from hell
Rebuild my life
Restore my soul
I can Walk each step day after day
In this arid land
I can grow integrity
I fall on my knees and pray
I'll never go through this again
Enlighten
What no longer is seeing
I need only a sign
A period of fight
A truce to my mind
The cure for what never existed