Breaking Tradition get what i deserve

I'm just as bad and I know you don't deserve this
And its sad cause you think its perfect
But I'm just as bad as everyone who's hurt you before
I'm just as bad, if not worse
Is this worth all the lost sleep and bad dreams?
And I've come to terms that I can't look at you the same
Will I be hanging in your head for days?
Or will I be this feeling you can't break?
And its sad to say this is the last day that I have to say I'm sorry
And its almost too late to get myself back on that train just to come and say I'm sorry
Cause maybe I'm not.
Cause maybe I'm not the one to be the one who will be the one
You're every line that I wrote
And every word that I spoke
And it kills to be as bad as every promise I broke
Will you wish your best for me?
Or will you wish your worst?
Will you spare me the heartache?
Or will I get what I deserve?