British India absolutely disgusting

She said that's absolutely disgusting
The way you treat these girls
And I got all defensive
But I knew she wasn't wrong
And I tried to think of excuses
A way to justify
But all that I could think of
The biggest lie
And that's absolutely unmanageable
To think of you this much
We tell each-other so much
But I always leave out half
'Cause I don't want you to know me
And the way I really am
And I don't want to subject you
To this again
(One, two, three, four)
You know it's absolutely pathetic
The way I used you up
And I told you things I didn't mean
To make you stick around
When you realise I'm a liar
And you've wasted all these years
It'll hurt you much more than it hurts me
It hurts me
You know it's absolute insanity
As waking up these days
And the sea of blood on TV
The endless grey parade
And our hearts have all been pulped up
Like the reddest things on earth
So we cut each-other open
And drink the hurt
Drink the hurt
You know it's absolutely impossible
To get out of here alive
You'll get 80 years if you're lucky
Before you start to die
In the hospitals and hallways
Where we lean against the walls
And we dream about how we were long before
Long before
You know I'm absolutely terrified
That I'll wake up one day
And they'll be no-one left here
Who'll put up with me this way
And you'll all say I deserved it
You'll all say we all told you so
And I'll have to admit that I should have known
Should have known
And it's absolutely wonderful
To speak to you again
A better job, new boyfriend
Guess all it takes is time
And I hope I get there someday
'Cause I know I'm not there yet
But I swear to god in heaven
I'm not scared
I'm not scared
I'm not scared
I'm not scared
And so it's absolutely disgusting