Canvas medicate me

There is no growth from loss
The days roll out to be the same
I can't make them change
Stuck in the same place
With all my fears holding my hand
Walk the same routine
Day to day it dosnt feel right
I'm sick to death of life
Cut right to the bone
Peel back my skin
Just to let go of feeling alone
I'm on my own again
No matter how hard i try
Life passes by
Everything and everyone
Leaves me behind
I've never felt so alone
I've never felt so at home
Nothing will change
Everything will stay the same
Reality has got its nails in me
I feel it hold me down
It's suffocating
Peel back my skin, open me up
Rip out my heart