Charcoal Tongue my deeds on display

Welcome to the story of my deterioration
Turn the page, it's all the same, I just needed to say this
You might remember when it looked like I had it together
Now those days are over, I can't live like this forever
Welcome to the start of the end
Today is the last day I pretend
So what if I'm living a lie?
I'm just trying to find what's inside
The lying and deceiving,
It all started with the feeling,
That you'd never understand all of
The torment and the bleeding
Pay attention 'cause this note is my digression
From the pressure and attention of the
Things I'll never mention
Just, Go!
Did you wanna go?
I'll be just fine,
Just need some time
I'll leave this all behind
Pay attention 'cause this note is my digression
From the pressure and attention
Of the things I'll never mention!
I'm sorry for being [?]
That I'm not okay
I just needed you to hear it