Client soldier

Get drunk, I get high
Get home, I wonder why
Get lost, get high
Coming down, I get why
Going fast, going small
I just don't know where to go
Going down, gonna be the best
Bad dreams in my head
I'm a soldier
Can't find, confused
Get a grip on what to choose
Can't strain, restrained
I'm aware of this problem now
True nature, feeling pain
Bad (fighting), ...
Brainwashed and brain-dead
Lot of words in my head
I'm a soldier