Daudi Matsiko ok since we re being honest

Okay, since we're being honest...
After it all, outside of the chaos
No sense to be found, clarity opaque
I'm not pure of heart
Promised not to make it worse,
make better decisions
I couldn't keep my word
I deserved defeat
I didn't tell you when I was afraid
Hid myself from you just pushed you away
Couldn't satisfy the destruction I craved
When all you gave was love
and I deserve less than what I have received
the void left behind bitterness that I keep
Oh i didn't listen let anger take me
when all you gave was love
All i gave was up
I'm not pure of heart.