On my own again
As if I was unemployed but with good settlements. Too lazy to apply in this weak economy
I must come off as deranged and juvenile, drowned.
Push away and reconcile
I should abduct all my friends ‘cause they all formed a family / stay home
A normal life? It makes me wonder, but do I really wanna know?
Enough with the demolition. I damn well know, can't make it alone
And I found out that most relationships are about the changes you make and letting go
What am I holding on to ‘cause nothing's the same anymore
Now all the turbulence makes me sick
but still makes me feel at home
I fucking lost it again
As if I am unemployed with decent settlements, too lazy to apply
I should burn / simply destroy my escape plan blueprint 9/11 style
Jaded by the loss after a while
But the darkness will go away ‘cause I can turn the lights on
It's hard to give myself away ‘cause I'm all that I own
I am all I own