Dead Man Winter cardinal

There's nothing I want, just leave me alone
If I need you I've got your number
In the winter I left my happy home
Don't think I'll be back any longer
One time I felt safety and love
But it left as fast as I found it
Now I just break everything that I touch
There's no way under or around it
I sit here and stare at these four painted walls
And the birds outside are singing
Nothing moves, no nothing at all
But the peace that the grave is bringing