Descartes A Kant bluish

I don't know
which was the moment.
I just remember suddenly being here
The body is dead
My mind is the controller
All seems so bright and fast.
My heart will breathe.
I never meant to disappear so long.
I had to leave.
I was feeling tainted.
I never meant to disappear so long.
I left our home to try to fund us something better.
I know big love.
I have to give more than hard words.
But if you say you're in the game
you'll be my sick, sick, sick;
my sweet bone breaker.
But if you say you're in the game,
you'll be my sick, sick, sick;
my sweet bone breaker
Say the code word, slow.
Stop that freaky motion, slow.
'Cause I'm fierce and sad,
I'm fierce and sad,
I'm fierce, I'm self, self destruction.