Desmesure my rage for you

This life is a fight to survive
in a world that was not designed for us
I've decided if i want to live my life
I'll have to be selfish and look for my back.
Father if you let me go to the wrong way it's the same to die
mother hold my hands to save myself or I will fall into the abyss
you don't think in the same way
you don't think in the same way
you don't know anything about me
I am done with this fight,
this is not what I wanted to do with my life
And when I thought that it was over
I found another decision to make
is my life important enough
to sacrifice all that I had before
Can you tell me is this the day I die
or should I stay and try to keep you alive, for a life
that I don't want to live, that I don't want for you
but that's something that I cant decide for you
Father if you let me go to the wrong way it's the same to die
mother hold my hands to save myself or I will fall into the abyss
you don't think in the same way
you don't think in the same way
you don't know anything about me
Can you tell me is this the day I die
or should I stay and try to keep you alive, for a life
that I don't want to live, that I don't want for you
but that's something i cant decide for you
Tell me what you intend to do when I'm gone, I've done all I could
I wont be here for you to keep your
back straight the time you want me to.