Disbelief living wreck

Where is the joy,
Where is the bliss,
Rest and satisfaction?
Alone, weird and suffering,
Down on the ground,
Pined for you.
Pined for you -
Desirous
Hungry for your return
Return of feelings,
Return of trust.
Or to let go of,
What I love.
The living wreck
Join the living wreck
To which place,
My trip is forced?
To the surface -
Urging for a sense.
A hungry wolf
A hunter for affection
Behind me
These memories
Looking forwards,
There is ...
There is joy
There is bliss.
Looking backwards,
There was ...
There was fight
There was burden.