Exalt judas wolf

Am I the Judas Wolf
Or just lined up for the slaughter?
Will the pain teach forgiveness
Or will I be a martyr?
Dissolve
Eradicate
Destroy
Excommunicate
Let my body know pain
Yet keep my mind from decay
As life is a garden
In cold I will wither, in frost I will wilt
Ancestry is a cavity
In healing I will fracture, in suffering breeds health
A still born birth into abundance
Escape the lap of bliss
A rush of blood leaves my fingers
With what I leave I cannot grasp
Am I the Judas Wolf