Fallingice desired

It’s the moment to reflect
It’s the moment to run away
I have to change ‘cause everything I’ve absorbed
I’m sure it will explode
You spit the reality out that I could not suppose
Don’t know how to behave
My senses are so obscured
And I feel so refused
Please God save me
And I continue to give in trying to be desired
Judge me for what I am, trying to be desired
If you understand the poison will vanish, I could be desired
I crawl trying to be desired
It’s the moment to look back
It’s the moment to feel the pain
I am ashamed ‘cause everything I’ve done
I’m sure it’s not so good
You spit the reality out that I could not suppose
Don’t know how to behave
My senses are so obscured
And I feel so refused
Please God save me
I must be bad so I can go on
I hardly can stand up
I feel hypnotized
I lost everything in my mind