[Verse 1: Fresku]
If only I was someone other than who I am
The stupid slob at the back of the class who no one knows
The teacher can see my mistakes but no one sees talent
The empty space in my head is where I'd rather be
Years later I got nothing out of my school
Except that I now realize what a moron I was
/>And now I can rap about it for fun
I'm a rapper now but I still haven't gotten rid of my troubles
Sorry mom I didn't become an astronaut
But I feel like I've grown old too fast
But that's what happens when we become parents
While you watch your little one's years, yours are lost
Before I know it, Alisha will soon start becoming a woman becoming
And calling myself a rapper is starting to become a mistake
Nobody wants to see me rapping when I'm 40
But sometimes it seems like all I can do, if I'm honest
I hate mâ I always work when I think about performance
But the more I think about failure the more I pen
Sometimes I fantasize that I am not of this world
To avoid having to deal with how complicated I am
If only I could live in my own head
If only I could believe in your superstitions
Unquestionably, in my own zone
And stay there and prevent time from moving
[Hook: Fit]
No, I really don't care
So I take your hand and look at you I feel your pain
And if you now doesn't love me
Then you probably love the man I mean to be
[Verse 2: Fresku]
Sometimes I think I wish I was a better planner
Then I could I might spoil my wife a little bit
Then I would have more time and I would take that into account
But then we would have less money in our account
So sorry baby because I know that I'm difficult
I know I don't listen and I'm often in thoughts
I work when you sleep and sleep when you're awake
And still sleep while I'm awake
I ask myself if I am a good daddy
If I am loving, patient and funny
I don't think so, it brings panic
But I find peace hearing that soft voice
She says I love you daddy mi stima bo
And then I realize that I'm doing it for her
Doing it for Alisha, doing it for Lieke
I can handle the whole world when I feel their love
When I think how small I am and I feel insignificant
In this universe and I feel sad
When I think what does my life or music matter
I channel my thoughts to family
If only I could live in my own head
If only I could believe in your superstitions
Undoubtedly, in my own zone
And stay there and keep time from moving
[Hook: Fit] (x2)
No, I really don't care
So I take your hand and I look at you are you feeling pain
And if you don't love me now
Then you probably love the man I mean to be
[Verse 3: Fresku]
Just worrying about If only I had, if only I had
I don't even realize that I'm making few steps
Throw me into the moment. Don't give me time to hurt
Because in fact I don't do anything when I make plans
Doing is learning and not thinking, thinking brings me nothing
I ponder until I lose myself
If I want to live my dreams, I have to live instead of dreaming
I will see possibilities by living less in my head
You achieve more by doing than by thinking
Even if you do only half of it is right
I lost myself so that everyone was happy
And now I lose people when I look for myself
Oh shit, I'm worrying again.⨠I'm focused on the negative again
Today I'll just stay at home.⨠I postpone my ambitions andâ¦
[Outro: Ronnie Flex]
I stare into space, I hear no sound< br/>Sometimes I close my eyes, one day I come home
I'm always alone, even when I'm with you
And that's how my world goes,⨠so my mother has made me