Frostagrath existence

No light , only darkness
Even the sun rises with a black light
No truth , only lies
All I can hear is my cries ,
Deeper and deeper from deep within
A black painted world silent and gloomy.
Dead memories and forbidden thoughts
Only misery and forgotten hopes
No future , No tomorrow
I've became the prisoner of sorrow
Burdens can get you down on the ground,
never to be back on your feet again.
alone , lost , swallowed by fears
and haunted by this unmerciful pain
I'm all alone , I'm gasping to inhale !
I'm suffocating , I'm fading away !
Why life is so cruel with me ?!!
Why fate manipulated me !!!
How can I be saved ?!!
But now I can clearly see it ,
The undesired truth
Everlasting nightmare
NO WAY OUT !!!
is it death or salvation ?!