Gardens Of Gehenna from a silent yearning dark

Every defeat's a little death
It's a disaster for the weak
But for me it's just a challenge
A passage to another me
And therefore, rouged with blood and ashes
I'm singing on my way to hell
I'm dancing toward Golgotha
I'm guided by an inner knell
There are many shades of black
And that I use the signs you've chosen
That I'm talking in your tongue
Doesn't mean that you're my friend
I don't want your fucking pity
'Cause one gets it for a song
But your jealousy honors me
For which I've been working hard and long
From a silent yearning dark
A secret, mighty spell is born
Beneath a red sky burning cold
From my ashes I will rise