Gavin Castleton oregon

How'd I get here? What is this -
Tattooed on my stiffening wrist?
I taste sulfur smoking upwards
Whirling towards my loose teeth...
I'm so tired... I can't sleep...
Just outside they wait for me
I can't fix these things - these empty dry legs
I've stopped bleeding, there's only violence in me
I have sisters safely in their homes
Far from this, thick with kids not nearly grown
Groaning forth from everyone outside
Colorless hopelessness from blackened eyes
I take with me the only thing I've learned
Lovers leave, fighters lose, all things will burn
Burning fear - the poison in my bones
Paralyzed, horrified to be alone
A lonely drain on everyone I know
Oregon! Oregon - my home sweet -----