What pain awaits me?
When cables
penetrate my skin
and nest in my flesh like
parasites,
want to control every fiber of my body
.
Electrodes implanted in my brain will abuse my body to carry out their judgments. I will become a tool of power and without knowing what I am br/>cause, I will spread fear and
fear
...and without knowing what I
do, I will spread fear and
fear...
/>I am being robbed of my past,
my personality.
Everything rebellious in me is torn out, dehumanized by
executioners who themselves were just delinquents
still always are.
My childhood is dissolved in gray
noise - erased
as if I never existed
never exists never exists
exists never exists...
What does this emptiness look like?
Will I perceive this emptiness as such
or will it become
apathetic reality
without truth, love, closeness?
Will I taste it?
Maybe - but never more kissing,
Touching skin.
No more thinking, speaking, dancing.
Whether my mind
will find a place where it can be in can continue to exist in some
form, or
is it lost if it loses its hold in
my body.
Never be tired again
Never be afraid again
But I'm still afraid,
terrible fear of what
awaits me.
But fear eventually makes the mind deaf and blind.
No more fear?
No more life?
No more fear, no more life
No more life, never more fear...