indigo blue hole

I put all the things behind me
And I drove to the edge of town
I needed to find some places
Without anything that brings me down
Finally I'm falling into the hole
I guess I was digging this hole for myself
Isn't this what I wanted?
Isn't this how I dreamed of?
Then why do I have to feel so wrong?
Thought I can be so happy
Thought I can live my life
Then why do I feel my day is so long?
I knew the tears won't help me
So let them fly up in the air
I tried everything I know
But I still see you everywhere
Finally I'm falling into the hole
I guess I was digging this hole for myself
Isn't this what I wanted?
Isn't this how I dreamed of?
Then why do I have to feel so wrong?
Thought I can be so happy
Thought I can live my life
Then why do I feel my day is so long?
I'm digging deep like a mole
I'm running away from goal
I'm fighting with my own soul
I'm falling into the hole