Today, I have known what I am worth to you,
I have learned that to love you you have to suffer,
I learned the lesson very well.
And no, I didn't like it and I never want to see you again
because my eyes were blinded from seeing
the already unspeakable thing that only made me suffer.
Yes, I know that you have a very good relationship with God,
but the situation was different with me.
You didn't love me and neither did I love him.
You made me see hell without being
the guilty of a cruel crucifixion.
How good it is to you Lord, to me, to me it never was.
He was unfaithful to me, he made me cry, he did everything to me that should not be done.
He made me suffer, he made me sad, but with all my heart I forgave him.
You, you taught me that on the cross Jesus died
crucified for loving and for love
and that he died for everyone.
What is the reason that you did not love me?
If I died for you, for no one else, for you,
but I saw that this never mattered to you.
Oh, and thankfully I was saved from death by
the self-love that my father instilled in me
with great pride and with my own dignity.
I told myself this is it, today I have to leave, breaking up with you that was my obligation,
I didn't know where to go, whether to live or die and I started to think about myself with faith and devotion.
And one night I saw the sky filled with stars, many of them forming a cross
and it gave me the sign that it was the great end of a constant without living, it enlightened me and then I finally saw the light.