J.R.R. Tolkien read by Rob Inglis chapter 03 05 the muster of rohan

I can't keep pushing this down any deeper,
Why do I keep trying if I can't keep her?
Every move I make
Is just another mistake
I wonder what it would take,
Because it feels like there's a hole inside my body
Like there's a hole inside my heart
It's like this feeling is gonna consume me,
If I keep waiting for this thing to start.
Oh, I feel like I'm all gummed up inside,
It's like I'm all gummed up inside,
It's like I'm all gummed up insi-i-de... i-i-ide.