2 am or in the middle of the day
you're still not here
and for that I know I'm not okay
the world is spinning
but I'm stuck here
my car is dead, but so am I
is it the girl,
or the time of year?
And I said,
I can't fall down again
I hate this place, I miss your face and all
now all I see is gray
in almost everything I used to love
is this what I've become?
October's never scared me numb
scared me numb
I used to think behind scars
something pretty grew
So I cut open my heart and took out parts
to grow a garden for you
but you just plucked and wept
Because the flowers had died
and you denied
what was killing them
So I said baby
There's really nothing left
I miss your face, I hate this place and all
now these songs sound the same
And baby I can't fall down again
this is the lowest that I have ever been
so don't call me unless you've grown
you're own garden
you're own garden
2 am or in the middle of the day
you're still not here
And for that I know I'm not okay
The world is spinning
But I'm alive