Jesse Sykes & the Sweet Hereafter servant of our vision

Every day I wade through muddy waters deep
Without this wanting, will I soon be free?
It's hard to know, harder not to know
And if you lose yourself to love just once more
Is the servant of your vision at the door?
He's brought shadows for your flowers
In the absence of fear beauty will appear
Though this beauty is not mine
It's hard to love, harder not to love
Everything that's ever come before
As the universe exhales just once more
In time for recovery
It's always winter inside every heart of gold
For summer hearts are just longing for the cold
Heat for the young, winter for the old
Soul, whose grown tired of his skin
Who generates the warmth to rise again
And, if you lose yourself to love just once more
Will the servant of your vision kick down the door
And bring shadows for your flowers?