Jessica Mayuga what are you sad about leaving behind

I've never called you darling
But that doesn't mean that you're unkind
I've never called you sweetheart
But that doesn't mean you're bitter all the time
For all we know our woes
Are only roses that won't grow
So don't be afraid, know they'll be there
They just need some more love and more care
And over time our branches won't be bare
You've been gone just a day
But I miss you like I haven't seen you in a year
I wish I could just tell you how I feel
But your reaction is my fear
I never seem to find
That I'm important in your life
Even though I know we're friends
And friends are always there for friends
But waiting isn't something I recommend
It's just hard to love somebody
Who is there for you reluctantly
You gave me something I don't want to keep
And I hope that this haunts you in your sleep
And I hope you know you've made my life feel cheap