I hurt myself today,
To see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain,
The only thing that's real.
The needle tears a hole,
The old familiar sting.
Try to kill it all away,
But I remember everything.
What have I become?
My sweetest friend.
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end.
And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt.
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair.
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair.
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear.
You are someone else,
I am still right here.
What have I become?
My sweetest friend.
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end.
And you could have it all,
my empire of dirt.
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt.
If I could start again
A million miles away.
I would keep myself.
I would find a way.