Tonight I'm posed and popping like a peacock
I'm pressing flesh, I'm smiling big, my spinning head sings Stop, just stop
Cause what used to calm me down
Just rips my life to ribbons now
So I keep smiling, I find my window and quick cut out
These days my hangman's hunger makes my gut kick
My sleeping mind, could map it blind
A flask, a key, a bag, a fifth
I try to will myself away
While shouting habits plead their case
So when the sun sears through my eyes
My beggar's brain can't compromise
I splash cold water, I draw the curtains, I stay inside
And I can't say that it's a sickness, more like a stranger I ask in
And later realize, was a strangler
Slipping nooses in my den
But I was lonely so I asked him, Would you tie that one on me?
It wasn't his fault, I was eager, and I was weak
So as I inch towards resolution
Yea I'm not sure which life feels right
A narrow noose or the wading water
The hanging head, sore open eyes
I know my brother he went one way
And at the fork I heard him say
Dont you follow, dont go making my mistakes
And I realized what he meant
Don't kill yourself to raise the dead
It never works you'll only end up joining them