Killem shut in myself

People get shocked when I arrive
To this wheelchair I am chained
But my mind's alive
trapped in this broken shell
Trying to control my spasms
While my dribble stains my clothes
And my eyes are begging
"please take my hand"
I only need understanding,
I am not dead yet
I don't wanna be shut in myself,
I wanna run away
I am trying to express myself
but my mouth won't say a word
I would like to stand up
shouting my name
If only I could understand
why god did this to me?
A misdrawn caricature
that's what I am
I only need understanding,
I am not dead yet
I don't wanna be shut in myself,
I wanna run away
You can see the same again,
people are pitying me
My life lies in others' hands
like a puppet without strings
I'm completely useless,
but they're keeping me alive
Who cares about what I do?
If my fate's already sealed
I think they must let me
follow my way
I only need understanding,
I am not dead yet
I don't wanna be shut in myself,
I wanna run away
You can see the same again,
people are pitting me
Am I dreaming? Am I dead?
All my thoughts are sinking into the void
I can stand up, now I can explain
All I've felt throughout this endless pain
I am falling into the unknown
Darkness never seemed so bright before
For this poison, I have to thank
The friendly hand that finally freed my soul