Life Barrier ghost pains

There is a ghost that dwells inside my chest
Breathing through my lungs and hoping someday they will both collapse
Whispering in my ear
I hope you fucking disappear
This life isn't yours
I am your prison
I never knew what my life would be
These bed bugs get the best of me
I'm overcoming these demons with every ounce of strength I have
But it's not enough anymore
I never knew what my life would be
Living with a clouded mind
You've always been one to criticize me
But I would never take back a single word I said
You fucking coward
If the weight of the world collapses on my shoulders
The light of happiness is dead and I feel colder
But it's all in my head
It's getting harder everyday
This life is not supposed to be this way
Living with a disease
That gets the best of me
I am stuck inside my head
Bearing loss of the people around me
A disappointment to those I love
I'll never be good enough for you
I'm so sick of this sinking feeling inside my chest
Take me back to the time when I didn't hate myself
For the choices that I've made
We will walk the earth alone
We shall never be a life in this world
Even if it means I'll never feel this way again
We will walk the earth alone