Now I think it's not worth it,
risking myself will bring more problems.
So I choose
what is closest to me.
At least I will be certain
that I exist,
that I can decide,
that I choose for myself,
only for myself.
Instead of accepting what comes from outside,
br/>instead of telling what is left,
from now until the day I die
at least there will be surprise.
Something new,
something still to come discover,
something inside me,
within me.
How much time I have lost out there,
how much to discover in my head.
It is so vast
It's almost lazy.
I almost think I don't have the strength
to do it
and find something new within myself.